If you haven't noticed, I haven't been blogging much about the baby-making journey. Maybe you are hopeful that means I am pregnant...so nice of you to think so. Unfortunately, that is not the case. I haven't been talking about it too much because we have been officially taking a break from the process. Yes, a month or so off while we figure out our next path.
I was both relieved and sad about the month off. Relieved because I wouldn't have to go in for bi-weekly blood draws and ultrasounds. Happy because I wouldn't have to give myself any injections or medications. Elated because I could just live my "normal" life.
However, as with most things in life, there are the downsides. I was sad because this meant that nothing up to this point has worked for us. Angry because I am afraid that a month off is one less chance at conceiving. Upset because I am still without many answers.
So here we are, in a sort of limbo. I am heading to the doctor this week for some tests and to start a new process. I am actually glad for this past month off as it has given me some new perspective...as well as some emotional sanity. I continue to be hopeful that there will be a baby in our future. Now that I have had some seriously-needed personal time, I am ready and able to get the proverbial "ball rolling."
Here we go again.....
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